Remainder

No, I did not misspell reminder. Remainder is what is left over after everything is said and done. That is how I feel today. The remainder. Lots of things have changed for me lately. Not all of them have been for the good. Right now I am sitting at my dining room table staring out my sliding door into my backyard. It needs work. But not today. It is 9:00M and I am waiting for my Nicky to wake up so I can enjoy his laughter and good spirits. Jimmy is at a sleepover with his friend Marcus. He will be home in an hour. Once they are both with me everything will be right again. Still, right now I feel like a remainder...

5:40pm update

I read a quote in a book today that said "stay the path". It is a really good book and I have really learned a lot from it, philosophically speaking. I thought about the quote. I always try to stay the path. I am all about staying the path. My entire life I have dreamed about being able to stay the path. Biggest problem is the path keeps dropping me off at the curb. So what happens when you are on the path and it is a wonderful path, you can hear angels sing on the path and then, the next thing you know, the path ends at the curb again...

I know this is not my usual post but I am feeling a bit down and I seriously doubt anyone reads these anyway. Never any comments. So, I am posting about paths. You can't kick me to the curb for writing this, I'm already there.